Probably like so many artists out there… I have tons of unread/unpublished/forgotten writing and art work strewn about the internet and my very full closets at home. So.. I decided to delve back into some favorites for inspiration and thought I’d share. I will be posting some of my work over the next few weeks or so and would love for others to be inspired!
Here is one written in 2010. What was life like before babies?? Marriage? Ah it was full of free time to think and write all day. Ha! Those days will come again but these days So full of life (and nap refusing babies) will be over before I know it. I am enjoying them dearly.
This one is called, “Me For You”
so that i may receive.
i empty myself
so that you might
I lay down
in your resurrection-
All of me;
Me for You.
Super simple. and yet so profound if we truly understand the gospel. The more I know, the less I am convinced I understand. Remaining child-like and teachable is so important to receiving more from God. If we think we know everything, how can we humble ourselves to learn? If we are full of our own opinions and our own efforts how can we hear what he has to say to us; receive his power and strength?
And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children,
you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
“I can do all things through Christ who keeps on putting his power in me.”
Paul says in 2 Corinthians that he boasts or “makes much of” his weakness. Why? Because it is in our “weakness” that God’s power is “made perfect.” We cannot do a thing. Lets just get that one thing straight. If you still think that living the christian life is about trying harder, you may want to hear this, Because you’re probably really tired. The gospel has NOTHING to do with our own efforts or our own spirituality. It has NOTHING to do with our past or our mistakes or inadequacies. It is all about you giving yourself to Him – The Holy Spirit living his life inside of you and coming into that understanding by faith. Jesus came so that we could be “born again” – so that we could reckon our selves dead (our false identities and fallen nature) and LIVE in Him! IN Him. He is our new identity. I know that is a lot but, the point is— we have hope. US. weak, little old me’s. Full of mistakes and weakness. If we can get understanding, we can find hope. Because it’s not about us. Its about Him in us. Oh just saying that i can breathe a little deeper and rest. All performance dies. All insecurity dies. All self-judgement dies. In this place of understanding, we can truly enter into his rest.
Our inability + understanding is our escort into divine power.
The word power used in 2 Corinthians is translated into the greek, “dunamis” which is defined as:
strength, power, ability; inherent power, power residing in a thing by virtue of its nature; power for performing miracles; moral power and excellence of soul; power consisting in or resting upon armies, forces, hosts.
When we think we can’t do it, we’re still making it about us. But Love has already come before us and taken the burden, and he has empowered us to do all that we are called to, be all that we were created to be, live abundantly in his promises.
To the proud and lofty, to those full of their own strength, He seems hard.
He seems so distant. So uncaring. But truly he is none of those things.
To the childlike and humble, He is so wonderful.
His yoke is so easy and his burden is light.
Today I laugh while I am writing this because I haven’t eaten solid food for three days due to stomach virus. I am tired. Grace is napping and the Lord said, “I want you to write.” I protested that I needed to sleep too. And he said… “remember what you’re writing about??? … ” Yeah. Your strength in my weakness. HA. So I got up and wrote this. I’ll end by sharing what the Lord said to me this past sunday when I walked into my church worship meeting.
With a little humor in his voice but a very sincere invitation He said,
“You’re full of yourself, but you can be full of me if you want.”
I laughed. See that may sound harsh. But it truly wasn’t. To me, it was like music to my ears. It was sweet relief to my over-working, proud, self-sufficient, fearful-of-dependence, trust-wary heart that has believed so many lies in the past about who He is and who I am. It’s all from a lack of understanding. I laughed! I said, “OKAY! I choose you, then.” And immediately I felt his presence in a way that I hadn’t for a good while. I felt so free.
Thats where I want to live, friends.
In awareness of my constant need for Him.
No room for pride or independence.